Melanie: I am also losing self doubt and negativity

This week has been another great week. I am becoming addicted to Zumba and Hip Hop class even though I seriously need to work on my dancing skills. I also have been doing a mix of cardio and strength training. Before this competition, I never heard of kettlebells. Now we use them pretty often during our workouts and they can be rough! After a couple sets, the kettlebells really do me in. The kettlebells are obviously a huge fat burner though and I am thankful for the trainers great expertise in what they do. Throughout this competition, I am losing and gaining so many things. The first thing is obvious and that is losing weight and inches. But I am also losing self doubt in myself and losing my negativity. I am also losing the feeling that I am unworthy of being happy. Every day I step into the gym, I am losing the layers that I have been hiding behind for so long. Now for the things I am gaining. I am gaining self esteem, which is something I have struggled with most of my life. I am hearing “I can” a lot more in my head. I’ve been pushing my body during workouts and even though it hurts at times, I know I can do it. One thing I didn’t expect to gain was a new set of friends. The girls are all so supportive and I seriously adore each and every one of them. Throughout all of this, I am gaining so much happiness and what more can anyone ask for?