I’m sad to think that this competition is going to end soon. I’m already seeing the other girls less frequently than I did over the summer, and I’m afraid I’ll see them even less after the competition. Hopefully we’ll still run into each other at the gym. We’ll always have zumba, right!?
It’s kind of amazing how changing your size can have such a good effect on your life. I started to lose weight in January, and since then I have lost about 45 pounds, which feels amazing! I still have a lot more to lose, but I’m really proud of what I have done so far. Physically, I feel sooo much better. I don’t get winded walking up just one flight of stairs, and I don’t dread talking walks with my husband. At one point, I wasn’t able to sleep on my back because it actually hurt me, so I had to lay on my side or my stomach. Fortunately, I don’t have that limitation anymore. I can sleep anyway I want.
I still am leary to try a lot of new things because I’m not sure if I’ll be physically able to do it, or if there is a weight limit, or size limit. Typically, I try to err on the side of caution, and if I think there is a chance that I might not fit, I won’t bother to try. I would tell people that I prefer to ride rides alone because I wasn’t sure if my butt would fit with anyone else, or I’ll make a fat joke to alleviate tension so it’ll be easier to laugh at the situation if i don’t fit. There are a lot of things that run through my head about my size that typical people probably don’t think about with regards to their own size. I’m not trying to be Debby Downer…I’m just saying, this is just some stuff that I have to think about! I know that if I keep going and continue to get healthier I won’t have worries like that anymore. I also know I’ve already come pretty far, but dang, that finish line still seems pretty far away!