OK. So this is actually happening. I mean ACTUALLY happening. Who would have thought?!?!? Definitely not me. I was pleasantly surprised when I received the phone call from Lisa to come to the gym for the meet-and-greet. I thought, “Well, this is a long shot, but ok. What have I got to lose? I’m already fat!” I left there thinking without a doubt that I wouldn’t get picked. Then, I came home to a blinking red light on my answering machine and everything changed…
I am still in shock. To be one of the (now 7) contestants is absolutely amazing. It is such an incredible, overwhelming feeling…I can’t accurately describe just what this means to me. I started gaining weight roughly 5 years ago. I’ve only really tried once to lose the weight and that was unsuccessful…I got discouraged and before I knew it I looked like, well, this (*points to self*). So. Now what? Well, day one came and went in one sweaty blur. I got to meet the other contestants and then show the trainers what I am capable of doing at this point in the journey. It was a “slow” day but emotionally it was long. It felt like the first day of school – where am I going? who are these people? will they like me? will I like them? will I do well? why did I think this was a good outfit?
Only time can answer these burning questions. For now, I can offer you this little nugget: what are my goals?? Well, ultimately and most obviously, I would like to lose weight. A lot of weight. I would also like to eat healthier – I’m talking to you cookies! And you too pizza! I’m a vegetarian with a sweet tooth and a hankering for carbs…a lethal combination, I know. Last but certainly not least, I’d like to lose the baggage. It’s not easy being fat – it takes a lot out of ya! Not only physically but also emotionally it’s a heavy thing to carry. And that’s it in a nutshell!